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felt like i was drugged for the whole of Sunday.
woke up weak and lethargic. symptoms of being ill.
flopped back into bed after lunch. woke up 2 hrs later and still felt drowsy.
don't know what's wrong. feels very exhausted. i jus crave for my bed and sleep.
not a good sign, coz i normally don't sleep alot.
but my sleeping patterns rather regular,
any disruption means that i'll get really cranky.

tried doing Irving's reading on Main Puteri, Shamanism in Kelantan.
fell asleep halfway.
got a Malay wedding a few blocks away. golly... they've been singing since 10am.
the worst part: they hired bad singers that it's making a terrible din rather than communicating love and joy through their songs. but still, it's far better compared to yesterday where i had a bloody renovation work 3 storeys down. they were hacking down the walla and window grills.
i felt that i was being hacked apart, and my sanity split into half....

met Don last nite for dinner and drinks.
okay, we had escargots baked in button mushrooms. really good i must admit.
gotta bring Elaine there someday. they have pretty good pasta too. yay!
then headed to Menotti's for a glass of Bubbly with passionfruit ice cream after realizing that Harry's Bar at Esplanade was packed to the brim. apparently there was a performance by the bay last nite. walking into Harry's Bar made me felt transported through time, into a old pub in England, with a local band playing in the background. not my kinda place for chilling out.

hang around at Menotti's for a long time.
caught up about friends and family. latest marriages among who's who.
talked abt his data-mining job and lousy pay at HSBC.
bitched abt Stephen Keck and his Sporean wife who was apparently his ex-student.
Lockhart has 8 cats at home. one fat furry de-clawed nasty Persian. hahah.
Peleggi used to have a tall Sri Lankan girlfriend. so now we know he's not gay.
abt his ostenstatiously colored clothes, MP thinks he's very fashionable. God help him.
DuBois have many Jap girlfriend-s. i stress the S behind.

Don's not dating. it's been... 5 yrs he abstained from relationships.
he doesn't need affection or emotional attachment to anyone.
he no longer keeps his snapping turtle coz it bit his Mum.
on the other hand, his cousin Danny who's 30 is still having hell of a time.
Danny's current gf is a SQ girl. stays on-off over at his place.
when she's not ard, Danny's ex-gf comes over.
well, we can only say that Danny's maid is well trained to hide stuff and keep things 'in order'.
Christina's doing RCIA Journey 53 at my OLPS church. welcome to Catholicism.

chilling out with him reminds me of old times. when i was in JC2. that's how long we've known each other. staying out late, talking about everything and enjoying the intellectual sparring.
well, as much as he's got a very bad temprement, and a bad judgement of people.
he's a great mentor. very engaging academically. and very demanding. kudus to Don!
thanks for everything! (minus Clifton and the last 2 years of Cold War).

felt that Josh and i have been drifting apart lately.
guess it happens. nothing to talk about, nothing to do together, nothing common.
i really wonder why we got together in the first place... this is a retrospective opinion.
maybe it was really a bad mistake coz we didn't even know each other really well then.
prolly a heavy dose of infatuation. prolly i was just lonely then.
i'm currently enjoying lotsa freedom, privacy and time for myself.
he's having ample time to catch up with school and spend time at home.
therefore, why still be together? what's love to beign with?
when we're together, there's not much to talk about.
we just walk around in the malls, watch people... wasting time bumming basically.
i don't need a bf to watch movie, go lunch or play with me.
why are we still together?
are we staying together for the sake of staying together?
so many questions. zero answers. okay. maybe i don't wanna know either.

what's with lao ah-peks and me?
damn annoying! everytime i go out, even if i'm decently dressed in t-shirt and jeans.
i get stared by lao ah-peks! they'll be analyzing me from head to toe!
then again, ah peks ogle at any female. anyone with 2 boobs, smooth hair and hour-glass figure gets 'admired'. age doesn't matter here. ever observed sleazy lao ah-peks and aunties who promote Tiger Beer at coffee shops? you get what i mean, yah?
why doesn't Michele get starred by salivating lao ah-peks?! not fair!!!

just realized how energetic Grandma is.
she made 4 trips to the wet market tis morning!
2 times to carry her fresh gooodies. 2 times to carry her new potted plants for CNY.
applause! she's really fit for her age. she maybe 48kg, short and frail-looking.
she does lotsa manual work alone. such as gardening, cleaning the house, marketing, washing the sofa covers etc. i feel so small, so useless. i shld really start pitching in my share of work =/
never under-estimate your old folk.

posted by Veen @ 19:08